An Angel

An Angel came to visit Zack and I yesterday and left us a gift from Jesus.  This gift came totally out of nowhere and was completely straight from Him.  It was a beautiful card that said Baby on the front.  Inscribed in it was a note from Jesus that was directly to me... 

"Let me start by saying how proud I am of both of you. I have heard your prayers and felt your sorrow as we battled infertility together. I know your heart and rejoice at your desire to become parents. It does my heart well to see my children imitate their Father. After all, I have adopted you, and I love you with all my heart. Becoming a Mommy and Daddy won't be easy, but remember I am with you always. I am excited to begin this exciting new chapter of your lives with you. Cherish, nurture, love and care for this precious gift as I have cared for you. I love you with a never-stopping, never giving up, always and forever kind of love! Jesus"

When I read this I felt Jesus right there, like he was holding my hands and looking me in the eyes and then just held me.  

Over the past 10 years I have questioned God and not understood his plan.  That is until Friday, February 17th at 10:40 in the morning.  That is when Zack told me that he was on board and ready to pursue adoption.  That is when the past 10 years came rushing back to me and it became totally clear!  I mean I already knew that adoption was part of my future but until Zack was ready it was always a wish and a hope but now it's reality! 

Whoever this Angel is, THANK YOU, thank you for allowing God to speak through you and write such a beautiful note that spoke directly to us and for the gift to get us started on this journey financially. 

 P.S.  If you haven't already, swing on over to Zack's blog and read his entry about this, it is completely from his heart. 

And the paperwork begins...

Zack and I sent in an application to Adoption Assistance over the weekend and we were sent the Home Study packet.  At first glance I thought "Oh, this isn't going to be too bad."  Boy was I wrong.  It caused me quite a bit of stress.  We had to list our addresses for the past ten years..... once I started my list the longer it got... I have had one address for the past 5 years but the 5 years before that was 5 different addresses and two of those addresses repeated themselves one time.  While going over this list of addresses and trying to remember when I lived where it took me down "memory lane."  Boy am I glad and soooooooooo thankful of where I am now and what God has brought me through!  Zack is an amazing husband and I'm so lucky to have him in my life.  I would not want to go through this process with anyone else.  I love you!

Papers are mainly filled out, I have to get my medical forms filled out at my next appointment in 2 weeks.  We have asked our dear friends to write letters of recommendation.  I am sending out our background checks tomorrow. And the list goes on.... And really it's not the forms we had to fill out but all the pieces of information we have to pull together.  Whew! 

But....

It's TOTALLY worth it!!!!!!!!  :)

I already love you so much Baby Anderson.

XOXO Momma :)

Agencies

There sure are a lot of agencies out there.  How in the world do we decide? 

We have decided so far to check out two local agencies, Kentucky Catholic Charities Network and All Blessings International.  Both have been recommended by friends, the Catholic one only works with couples with infertility issues.  We have sent in inquiries to both and I cannot wait to get a call or email from them tomorrow!  :)

Big Smile. :)

I woke up this morning with a huge smile! I wonder what Baby Anderson will be like. Praying for their health and the health of their birth momma.

Update

We just officially sent in an application with an agency.  Can't wait till Monday!

I'm Pregnant!!!!!

Well, not literally but I feel like it!  Just think, there is a woman somewhere in this great big world that is pregnant right now with our Baby!  How exciting is that?!?!?!?!?!  If you don't know me personally then you do not know that earlier today I announced on Facebook that Zack and I are officially going to adopt.  This is a big step for us and we are so excited about this new journey.  :) 

Let me share with you the journey we've had so far...  I had been diagnosed with PCOS about 10 years ago, I knew that getting pregnant was not going to be easy and may not happen but I continued to pray and know that God would be faithful.  Then after some testing over the last year or so we were told that we would not medically be able to have our own children.  We were devastated.  That's when I began praying about an adoption and to open Zack's heart to that.  Over the past 10 years I've had time to grieve the baby I knew I may never have naturally, this was not the case for Zack and with patient prayers I lifted my love to the Lord.

- A little more background info-

From a young age I felt that I would adopt... didn't know why I felt that way, could have been that my best friend's little sister was this beautiful little girl they adopted from Korea.... OR could be that God had at a young age began to prepare me for this and has called me to adoption. 

At this time we do not know where Baby lives, whether it's a girl or a boy or even when they will be home with us but we do know that God knows and we will trust Him.

Please pray as we find an agency, decide which country, and raise the funds.  Thank you!